Dreams for 2015

The first week of January, as we were still celebrating the Twelve Days of Christmas, I created a little space for myself to do something I hadn’t done in a year :: I gave myself space to dream.

At the beginning of last year, 2014,  I remember feeling like hope, and any chance of happiness, died when Branch died. I felt as if all life were lost, and not just for a season, but forever. It seemed the only form of mercy would be God returning and ending my pain. For a full twelve months, maybe more, dreaming became something sweet, innocent, well-meaning friends did, or suggested I do. Dreams, for me, were impossible. In my inmost being, sometimes they still are.

At the beginning of this year, 2015, I found myself ready, waiting, wanting to dream again, even if just a little.  And so, on January 4th, I sat on the leather chair in our living room, I used my colorful pens, I let the dreams flow — big and small. Here is what I came up with.


Have a healthy baby. Write on my blog every week. Re-design my blog. Run 3 miles in 30 minutes. Travel to Europe. Eat at The French Laundry.

Dreams are different than goals. Dreams don’t need check-lists or priorities. Dreams don’t even need to happen. They are simply dreams. A picture of what the future could be, without any hidden agenda or judgement.  Dreams.

May God’s grace be sufficient for you today, whether you are able to dream or if the dreaming will just have to wait. You and I are so very loved.


Romans 8:32  “He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?”

2,012 Facts for 2012

Just kidding!  I don’t feel like spending the next week typing out facts, so how about I just share twelve??

Ready? Heeeerre, weeee, gooooo!

1. I was sick on Christmas. So was Glenn. So was Glenn’s Mom. So were our nieces. The plague ran rampant through the Murdock clan and its lingering effects can still be felt; primarily in my nostrils.

2. I have gained 5 pounds since November 1st. Egg whites only, please.

3. I bought Glenn shoes for Christmas. Not these shoes, but nice shoes nonetheless. Blue Jack Purcell’s, followed by a rare and uber exciting find: Ralph Lauren wingtip shoes. They are really awesome. They were also not full price. Not even close.

4. I like San Diego better than Little Rock.

5. Kimbo and I started the year off by hiking Pinnacle. Even though I like San Diego better, there are parts of Little Rock that are truly beautiful. Pinnacle is one of those parts.

{taken in the spring of 2010}

6. Thomas Keller is amazing at everything.

7. Glenn used his arm to “sample” various colognes yesterday. The living room still smells like a combination of D & G The One, Ed Hardy {????}, and Usher VIP. Ridiculous.

8. If you want a simple and delicious dinner, chop up a few tomatoes, slice a quarter of an onion real thin, and cube a block of feta cheese. Toss these 3 ingredients together with a pinch of pepper and a drizzle of olive oil. Voila: you’re done! I ate this for dinner last night, along with a fresh baguette.

9. Thirty degrees is cold. It might not be the coldest. It might not be that far below freezing. But it’s still flipping cold.

10. Saying “woof” is funny. It’s my new favorite word. And it always cracks me up. Always.

11. I am turning thirty in less than a month.

12. 2012 is going to be a great year. Potentially the best year yet.

Happy New Year, friends. All of my love for a fabulous 2012!