The Bod

Hello. I’m Kristin. I love food. Sometimes (ok, a lot of times) I am IN love with food. Food and I have a good relationship. Food treats me well. Never lets me down. Brings passion to my life. Food is kind of like my best friend. Until I step on the scale and don’t like what I see. Or when I eat too many fries and then feel bad about myself, obsessing over it all night.

I wrote a little bit about my weight on my old blog, which you can read HERE. I was doing well with Sensei’s guidance, but then our lives got flipped upside down and we moved to Little Rock, and I threw all ideas of health to the wind. Along with this “do as you will” lifestyle came 10 pounds. Oops.

“This is a problem.” I thought to myself. I felt like I was in a constant state of trying to lose weight and kept, in fact, doing just the opposite. I wondered if I was destined to be a chubby girl for life.

{Pause.} I feel the need to take a second and clarify a couple of things. First, I know – in my head – that I am not, nor have I ever been, fat. I have never even really been chubby. But knowing something in your head is very different from believing it in your heart. Second, this is a serious topic and it requires vulnerability and makes some people uncomfortable. I get that. I’m putting myself out there for all of the internet to see because here at Kristin Eats we love authenticity and vulnerability just like we love silliness and great food. {Resume.}

I had a problem on my hands (and thighs) and I didn’t know how to fix it. How does a girl who actually enjoys food get to and maintain a healthy weight? I was tired of dancing on the “slightly overweight” line of the medical charts, but I knew there was no way I would never eat another Levain cookie or give up fresh baked baguettes with cheese and wine for the rest of my life. Moderation, not depravation, was key. I had heard this from skinny girls around the world. The thing was, I thought I WAS eating in moderation. I ate vegetables every day, I shared meals, I only ate fried food once a week. If this wasn’t moderation, what was?

As I broke out the microscope, it became evident I was eating way too much. Not just every once in a while. Every day. Although I was counting calories and running half marathons like they were going out of style, I was eating up any calories I was burning on my runs and work outs, plus some.

Realizing you consume significantly more than you thought you did is kind of harsh. Very harsh, actually. It was my own personal This is Why You’re Fat. It meant swallowing my pride and admitting I needed to work harder. It meant re-evaluating my relationship with food, submitting my body to my mind {something my body does not like to do! it likes to be in control most of the time}, and pushing myself even harder during my workouts.

I’m 3 months in and it’s been slooowww. To date I have lost 6 pounds, which leaves me with 25-30 to go. I know I will get to where I want to be within time. I will be periodically updating you all with my progress, inspirations, things I’m learning or changing, and maybe even photos. If you have any questions please feel free to post them in the comments section, I will try to answer them so everyone can see. For now, though, here are some things I have done that have made a major impact on my life and helped me lose consistenly.

1. My Food Diary. I love this thing. I’ve been tracking my calories on here for about a year and it really makes things easy. I have an app for it on my phone and can also login no matter where I am, as long as I have internet access. My Food Diary includes a thing they call Recipe Builder which is a great way to know exactly how many calories are in the foods I make at home. I pay $9 a month for My Food Diary, but I know there are similar apps for calorie counting that are free, like Lose It! for iPhone.

2. I blogged about this in my February Favorite Things post, but the Moleskine Passions Wellness book is phenom. Yes I said phenom. Like really. I lurve it with all of my heart. It keeps me grounded in my goals and keeps my goals – big and small – within reach. I will never get rid of it, it has truly been a life changer.

3. Candace Cameron Bure’s book: Reshaping It All

Yep, that’s Candace Cameron as in DJ from Full House. Yep, it’s a book about Jesus and weight loss. Yep, some might think it’s cheesy but it’s totally worth reading. This book really broke it down for me and made me realize just how much I rely on food in unhealthy ways, and how much I let my body dictate what I do instead of making it submit to my mind. I will probably do a whole nother post on some of the life lessons this book has taught me, but for now just know that it’s grrreeeaattt and has given me the freedom to start to change my relationship with food.

4. Changing my calorie intake from 1500 to 1300 a day. This is the most recent change I’ve made, and it is a toughie. Although I was able to lose weight at 1500 calories a day, I am no longer active enough {believe it or not the full-time-writer’s day is not filled with a whole lot of “motion”} to be eating that number of calories every day. I usually have 1 or 2 days a week where I do go over 1300, but I try to do an extra hard workout the following day to make up for it. AND I remind myself that this is temporary – when I reach my goals I will be able to eat a little more to maintain my weight. Just keep in mind, if you want something you’ve never had, you have to do something you’ve never done.

5. Pushing it in my workouts. We are capable of so much more than we think we are. Pushing myself and working harder than I think I can is not always fun. Actually, it’s hardly ever fun. But the rewards outweight the pain every time. I have added a few sets of sprints to my workouts and I try to run faster or longer each time I do them. I have to remind myself that physical hurting is ok {unless it’s bones breaking, of course!} and will help me be stronger, leaner, and more self-disciplined in all areas of my life.

I hope this helps you, wherever you are on your journey. I am both excited and nervous to share my progress with you all. If you are interested in joining me on this trek, please feel free to email me at kristineats (at) gmail (dot) com OR leave a comment! Oh, and if you’re wondering how on earth I could lose weight while having 14 Layer Cake… I only had a bite. Now THAT took some self control.